"He Didn't Even Know That I Existed"

He didn't even know that I existed. But I knew that he was gifted. And every time that he

walked passed he didn't know it but my spirits got lifted. You see I was drawn to him seeing

nothing but his inter luminous radiation wanting to make love to his mind on a spiritual

pathological affiliation.

But he didn't even know that I existed

Wanting him to go deeper and turn me inside out just so that he could catch the penetration

of what I was feeling. I wanted to kiss him. But in the dark areas of where the evidence of

my love could not be seen I wanted to give him all of my love and act as if a fragment and

show him the things that could not be seen. Like the quiet storm when rain falls gently on

my pane, that's how I wanted him to be on me. Like a pen, when it covers a white sheet of

paper with its black cathartic release…just from that one thought alone. Like the imagery

used to design a buildings basic diagnosis. I was tryna be the imagery used to be the final

thought of his one and only. If only he could hold me and mold me like a sculpture and

shape me bare a free. With nothing else to offer but all the makings of me. Promising him

not to waste his time but just wanting to be blessed by the essence and presence of his company.

He didn't even know that I existed.

If only he could hold me for a minute the way that history held onto Nefertiti's capturing

beauty. Or Picasso holding onto that paint brush and softly sweeping the bristles of that

brush along the canvas; was just the way that he had swept me off my feet.

But…he didn't even know of my existence.

He didn't even notice that I loved him. I love you and you hadn't even known me yet. But

I'll say it again just to let you know that I mean it. I want your time and I don't want your

sex in order for you to believe it. Or for me to receive it. And baby….when it comes to me

and you and the time is right, I won't give you my sex. I wanna make love to all the mental

makings of yo body. I'm here to stimulate your mind and promise you to not treat like all

the other girls before me. I just wanna love you and love you in slow motion. Promising to

adore you, cherish you, and give you nothing else but pure devotion. I'll treat you like a

king. And nothing else would make me more happy than just to know that you are pleased.

Just as long as you don't treat me like you got me on a lease. But everything you want…I'll

be. And I know your girl might hate, but that's ok. I'll give her a physical and mental

demonstration of how you and her were supposed to be…

But then I snapped back into reality.

I'm standing here spittin and you still didn't notice me.

My Black Man

The strides in your step weaken my knees

My thighs sweat and I can't breathe

Your sexy lips make my back creep and the tone of your voice

Makes my pussy weep

The thought of you rushes blood to my head and your presence turns my cheeks

Blush red

The slight arch in your back makes my body attract heat

My mind gets off track and my hormones leap

Your beautiful eyes make sexual tensions attack

The intensity presses against my veins and makes my pulse react

Damn, the chemistry and vibes you send through my body can never be refrained

For you my body craves for the one and only

My Black Man

Quotes I love / (try to live by)

"If there is righteousness in the heart, there will be beauty in character. If there be beauty in character, there will be harmony in the home. If there be harmony in the home, there will be order in the nation. If there be order in the nation, there will be peace in the world.” - Confucius


"It is not What we take up, but what we give up that makes us rich."
- Henry Ward Beeche

"There are in nature neither rewards nor punishments, there are consequences."
-Robert Ingersoll

"motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going."
-Jim Rohn

"faith is to believe what we do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what we believe."  -Saint Augustine

"Success is a state of mind, If you want success, Start thinking of yourself as a success." -Joyce Brothers

2010 IS HERE!

Relatively happiness is not granted but earned....

In the midst of life, life happens!

Preparing for the inevetable is not easy, but far from impossible!

As 2009 retires and 2010 begins, let us prepare in our hearts vs. minds

Allowing space for new endeavors and and new environments,

for our minds are our own environment,

and our endeavors are our own destiny.......

Engage in yourselves at the end of this decade...

Reflect and rewind the past 10 years, and judge your judgements throughout!

Most importantly, Be honest..

Crawl into your temple, fearless of past self pity, and muster courage to create

A FUTURE!!

OPEN YOUR MIND TO YOUR INSTABILITIES!

Insanity compels the wholesome non evil and uneasy! Attacks the mind with persuasive pleasures, unclean thoughts and action. Steady at work are the insane, plotting and scheming for fresh endeavors in hourly frames. Subjective to intelligent insanity, WHOA to the end of mental instabilty. When the mind holts all energy present for integrity and brief spirituality.

God Fearing!?!? ARE YOU?

THINK TWICE, BETTER YET  THRICE!   

       Raised as a god fearing child, now woman. I believe I've never processed FEAR in my mind completely! Not any kind of fear whatsoever. In my recent life experience, mistake making and backsliding. I've learned alot about my faith and my fear! Generally there is no doubt in my mind that I am faith driven. Reciprocally, loved ones attempt to reassure and hearten. Due to the human like qualities of mankind fear rises in my chest and refuses to allow me release through exhilation. Subsequently Consequential judgements are a result in behavior that is chastised by a higher power. (GOD)!! Dont Let your fears outweigh your FAITH, Ultimately with it leading your life and not dragging you behind, you will constantly be at ease! I ASK, THAT YOU ASK YOURSELF, ONE QUESTION THE NEXT TIME YOU FIND YOURSELF BINDED AND BLINDSIDED BY THIS CRAZY, TWISTED, AMAZING, BLESSESD, BEATEN DOWN, RISEN UP LIFE WE LEAD..... IS YOUR FEAR GREATER THAN YOUR FAITH?

-ONE LOVE

Anticipation

Aplifying is the heartbreak of disappointments, with combinations of storms and quakes. Anticipation rises in the east and never sets. Eager to attain the liberty needed to generate happiness. Keen to the unforseen!
Guide Your Lives with Anticipation first, and Ambition second.